Oh Yeah, The Spirits Are Alive and Rapping!

So I have been stepping outside my comfort zone big time lately. I bet you didn't know that I was voted: "Most Likely To Say Nothing" in my high school yearbook. Yep, I was painfully shy growing up. No, you would never know it watching me work in the world. I do a splendid job never letting them see me sweat. Doing the YNN Cable 9 Interview last Thursday caused some anxiety for me. This has been something that I have done in the past, but only in tiny snippets. Not a 90 min interview on film. But I had so much fun doing it. What I enjoyed most; was the very present Spirit Friends in the room. The raps and taps that the reporter indeed noticed without me having to point it out. The natural ease and flow of energy, our exchange almost as though I was talking with a dear old friend. I realized that I LOVE Spiritualism. Truly, deeply, passionately, unconditionally. With all my heart.....the message "There is no death-There are no Dead" emanates from my soul. Channeling my Spirit teachers was a breeze. "They" know they have a devoted spokesperson, Trust me as a clear channel. No matter what I feel about doing this, it IS my higher mission. To move forward, everyday, in every way to share Spiritualism's message with the world. Outside my comfort zone yes.....but also so very ALIGNED and the next logical step in my work. I realize that I have been training for this my entire life. With the most intense "spiritual workouts"unimaginable. Over the years, they have lovingly molded me to fit their needs. I have no problem doing my part. Casting away my fears, setting my own insecurities aside. They know I dislike photo's, film images of myself. And quite frankly: they don't really care! They just laugh, joke and love me anyway. Tell me to get over myself. Remind me that it isn't about me at all.....it's about serving "them". I felt so much love after it was over. Emotion flowed both ways. I know that the Fox Sister's were very proud. I am incredibly humbled and blessed to be a part of this mission with them! All is well.

Just Doing What Comes Naturally

So here I am again wondering why it is so hard for some people to accept change, move on and let go of people places and things that no longer serve them. It is so natural for me not to become too attached to anything in this world. Everything can or will change. Can be over in a micro-second. I know that I will be taking nothing with me when I leave this rock but the love and life lessons I experienced. In my 46 years I feel like I have lived several lifetimes. Reinvented or reincarnated myself over and over again. I do not have friends from my childhood. I hold onto very few memento's of my life journey. Lack family photo's or school age memorabilia, marriages, homes, romantic relationships and so on. I know that nothing stays the same, that people come and go throughout our lives. Moving through life without attachments works for me. I know that some people are meant to stay longer while others are meant to simply pass through. They are all a bigger part of the higher plan. I realize that these personal experiences are important. I know that by loving as much as you can, for as long as you can: IS my purpose. I am better for knowing them. I also realize that some of them have tried to grab onto my life force, my coat-tail , to catch my light in their hands. Silly people. They would have a better chance to try to catch a shooting star in those endless skies above. I need to embrace changes with enthusiasm. I can choose to stop and smell the flowers along the way. Daily take time out to meditate deep within the quiet, seek the peaceful mind. Honor a heart that is filled with love. My motto: I don't know where I am going, but I can't wait to get there. I know that my soul can travel faster than the speed of light: when I am the light.....

Run Like Deer, Fight like Mother bear, Hide like fox, Learn to Strike like rattlesnake.

For those who know me, know I take everything "personally". I am beginning to realize that by doing so I have "unknowingly" been projecting a victim (gives power away) energy out into the world. However, I am standing much taller these days, head held high, eyes wide open. And I am learning that I am more the survivor now.(takes power back) I am getting better at setting healthier personal boundaries, speaking my truth and fighting for injustice in this world. For all injustice effects the Spiritual parts of me of us all. I no longer can run away, tuck my head in the sand, pretending that it is ok for people who I help and humbly serve with love and light to continue to control or abuse me.
Oh and recently someone asked me the million dollar question: who told me that is wasn't okay to be angry? Until that moment, I thought anger was unhealthy. Anger was used in my victim past to control and abuse me. But I know that some anger is healthy for the human part of me. So today I am owning my anger. I will feel it. Find my balance with it. Knowing that it is okay to be angry by the disrespect, inconsideration, rudeness that some people project in the world towards me. I am fuious (like a mother bear) that the more good I do everyday, the more likely there will be a lost soul who will try to knock me down or out of the game. Today I am standing with a fist in the air, shouting to the heavens, I am still HERE and no matter what happens I will keep doing and being what I am....LOVE in this world.