Baby We Can Do It....

So there is a line that is echoing in my head..."Baby we can do it take your time, do it right, we can do it baby" Oh no, not in the way you are thinking! All the songs that Spirit plays for me in my mind are intended with a Spiritual twist. I find that personal spirit messages come quickly for me in the words of music that I am listening to. For many years, I have felt pressure, rushed to do this work. Some have called it my passion, others an obsession...but we call it my mission. From the moment I awoke from a near death experience I hit the ground running. The spirit voices I heard before it were whispers compared to how loudly I can hear them now. There was a urgency, that at times was almost painful to "catch up" with my work on this planet. People who knew me before I "died" said I was completely different. Even my eyes were not the same. They used to be blue all the time but now they are constantly changing hazel eyes. I remember hearing words like: "walk in" used around me. But I never understood what those words meant. Years working with the hyper speed energy began to cause wear and tear on my physical body. I was given plenty of warning signs along the way. My spirit was saying " danger -danger" body is not being cared for. But "I" was far too busy to listen. Finally 2 years ago, my back just broke, they finally got my undivided attention causing me slow down a lot. I was reminded that "I" wasn't told I had to do it all by myself. I wasn't working alone, there were others here to help me. Learn how to delegate.
I can honestly say that 2009 was the 1st year I felt like someone was really working on me from the the inside out, to fine tune my body, mind and spirit. Preparing it/me for something...MORE.
Funny thing is: I am not rushed anymore, over stressed or feeling like I am being pulled in a thousand directions. I am calm and at such inner PEACE, feeling mostly centered and balanced. For the 1st time I am READY for these future changes. I know there is a higher mission. I know that I am alive today to be a messenger. I am a channel for those whom I serve from the Spirit World. And yes, I am eager, excited and very happy to be of service to those beings who wish to use me to do amazing things! The lesson: Once I really began to LISTEN deeper into my body instead of all the distractions outside of me it all fell into place. There is NO FEAR. I am ready...

It's All About the Balance

So here I am taking the one day at a time approach in creating positive changes in my body, mind and spirit. Eating like a tree is not as easy as you would think. Though I am eating much healthier. I am happy knowing that I am more awake and aware these days of my daily intake. Taking notice sooner of "old pattern's" the quicker I can steady my course.
Daily exercising is tough. Especially when your body hurts everyday. What I want to do and what I can do are not always the same. But I am busy practicing acceptance and loving my body anyway. My body is not my enemy. It is my temple. It has suffered years of abuse and damage. I can envision healing it, easing the pain and filling myself with light from the inside out.
But where it comes to setting healthier personal boundaries, with people who are "clueless' of how their negative energy and actions effect hyper "sensitive" people I am seeing the most results. I AM protecting myself- my energy better. I no longer am the abused child, beaten wife, or victim. I am a empowered survivor. I feel so much better when I am standing in my truth. Saying what I mean. Meaning what I say. Not waiting until the wind is going to "blow' but doing so way before the breeze turns fierce. (( =
I think it is rather funny that I lived for 46 years before I learned that it is okay for the human part of me to be angry at being trespassed against. To express it in a healthy manner is OK. Whew, what a relief that turned out to be. Without guilt. Shame or blame. It is what it is....perfectly normal. It makes me wonder what else I may have overlooked that may be holding me back. I am certain more will be revealed.

Run Like Deer, Fight like Mother bear, Hide like fox, Learn to Strike like rattlesnake.

For those who know me, know I take everything "personally". I am beginning to realize that by doing so I have "unknowingly" been projecting a victim (gives power away) energy out into the world. However, I am standing much taller these days, head held high, eyes wide open. And I am learning that I am more the survivor now.(takes power back) I am getting better at setting healthier personal boundaries, speaking my truth and fighting for injustice in this world. For all injustice effects the Spiritual parts of me of us all. I no longer can run away, tuck my head in the sand, pretending that it is ok for people who I help and humbly serve with love and light to continue to control or abuse me.
Oh and recently someone asked me the million dollar question: who told me that is wasn't okay to be angry? Until that moment, I thought anger was unhealthy. Anger was used in my victim past to control and abuse me. But I know that some anger is healthy for the human part of me. So today I am owning my anger. I will feel it. Find my balance with it. Knowing that it is okay to be angry by the disrespect, inconsideration, rudeness that some people project in the world towards me. I am fuious (like a mother bear) that the more good I do everyday, the more likely there will be a lost soul who will try to knock me down or out of the game. Today I am standing with a fist in the air, shouting to the heavens, I am still HERE and no matter what happens I will keep doing and being what I am....LOVE in this world.