So recovery has been a day by day process. I have found that I can no longer force myself or my body to do what is isn't ready to do. It gets cranky when I push myself too fast. Seems I totally underestimated my super woman healing powers. "I" thought for sure I would take a week or 2 off tops. I would do what I was told to do REST and HEAL. Apparently I didn't read the whole brochure or fine print in my pre-op paper work. You know, the part that says, 6-12 weeks is the normal recovery time for most patients.
My Dr laughed at me when I came in for my 2 week post op appt. He said: "My weakness or sleepiness was normal." Having the blues was too. Please go home and actually READ the paperwork they sent me home with and ummm....DO what it tells you. " I find that I need regular naps now. I eat.... gasp....organic baby food, soups, protein shakes, because everything I eat must be soft. In many ways I am treating myself like a small child. Now you ARE laughing at me! I figure my inner child is really enjoying, my outer adult nurturing her. Caring for her like she has never been cared for in her entire childhood. The newly added smell of baby soap, lotion and powder totally takes this process to a even deeper level of personal healing. Because of my skin sensitivities and allergies I am supposed to use these products too. I totally forgot that I loved these smells. They remind me of my children when they were infants. I LOVED the smell of them after I bathed them and put lotion on them. It is rather amazing to be so connected to my body. I am cleared out of all breads, pastas, flour, sugar, caffeine(hey does a 1/2 cup really count lol) eating little to no carbs....and no longer taking medications including insulin. I am a month out of surgery and I am completely detoxed.
And the best part......my Spirit has NEVER felt more present. I listen to my body, mind and spirit. I have no choice but to honor this temple each and everyday. I can only imagine what the future holds. But I find that I am in no hurry. I am taking time out to plant flowers, water them and to SMELL them. I am seeing clients again. My connection to the Spirit World is humming! SO fine tuned. Who knew, this would enhance my abilities? I am working at a more comfortable pace for all concerned. I have been delegating classes when I need to. Mother Nature is really speaking to me. The Earth healing work/ceremony is helping me stay centered and showing me spirit messages. A lovely blue jay has visited me the last 3 mornings. Just singing away. Walks right up to me. Never have I seen such a solid, strong, bright blue male. There are butterflies everywhere, humming birds and deer, my morning doves Mr and Mrs are sitting on their eggs in my Japanese Dogwood. We coo- chat daily. And everyday I meditate and walk, and walk and walk some more. In a month: 32 lbs down....lots more to go. But I am more at peace then I have ever been.
I am also looking for company to walk with me. I find that I am a bit lonely at times. So if you are interested, please let me know. I walk in the AM and PM after dinner time. Thanks for listening. All is well....
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Under Construction In a Fish Bowl With Audio!
So I struggled for the last few weeks about being "out and honest" with my friends, clients and parishioner's about what I am going through right now. Being a public figure working within the community is sort of like living in a fish bowl with audio. My most private, embarrassing moment's, as well as the wonderful achievements always play out on the public view, the "stage"of life. Absolutely everyone at one time or another judges me and my choices. But make no mistake about it: I judge myself as well. It used to crush me....one day I was up, the next I had a target on my back. People are funny like that. Some will hit you when you are up, others when you are down. Like the song goes: people just LOVE dirty laundry. (love that song)
12 months ago I adopted my new and healthy motto: "What other people think about me is NONE of my business!" And it really helped me grow a lot. The book The 4 Agreements was another tool that helped me develop a thicker skin in the public work I do. I have struggled with a body that doesn't always do what I want it too do. Not because my mind "didn't want it too" but stemming more from years of abusing it with medications including high doses of steroids for a back injury cause me to gain more and more weight. Car accidents left damage that overtime has been like my spine is playing domino's. I have been on so many different types of "crap" that I was suffering side effects which also cause a weakened immune system. Years of this morphed into becoming super hyper sensitive to those same meds Drs all wanted me to take. Last Ortho check, I was refereed to a Pain Management Clinic for injections into my spine. Spirit NEVER allowed me to make or keep that appt I kept hearing NO loud and clear. I let my weight keep me from flying to NYC and doing a Discovery Chanel Documentary about Mediumship, I told "*gasp* Harpo Studios NO because I didn't like what I looked like on camera. So I was suffering physically, emotionally and professionally. I knew something had to give. I couldn't keep doing the same thing and expect a different results. I also was becoming more and more down loosing my quality of life as I gained more weight from the inability to exercise. I used to bike, ride horses, hike, body sculpt, and DANCE. None of those things were possible anymore. Long term pain....can be debilitating to a Spirit. My energy levels became a struggle to manage. However, I loved channeling healing energy for others. I honestly believe that without doing it, I might have never made it through. I know that we all help each other. I teach that it is impossible to channel energy without it filling you first! I still strongly believe this today. Love and God can heal everything!
Then I was put on insulin a year ago. I was so upset. Now I had even more meds to take. More unbalance my body needed to overcome. It was hard giving myself injections every night. It never really was completely controlled. By diet or otherwise. Nothing would work without EXERCISE! But all Ortho Drs said NO EXERCISE! A not nice MIND GAME hamster wheel I let them put me on for several years. Around Dec 2009 my Dr refereed me to a friend of hers. She told me that I should go to this meeting at RGH. Said, "Robin, Merry Christmas... please DO NOT miss it." So I went. I met my awesome Dr that very same night. I found out at the standing room only seminar her "friend" was a Bariatric Surgen. He sought me out after his presentation and said, "Robin if you choose to do this, I promise to take good care of you and he has. I called the office which has a 3 month waiting list Jan 3 and someone had canceled an apointment the following day. I took it. I have been in "boot camp" ever since. Head to toe, in and out I have been tested and retested. I have under gone training and more. It has been a fierce year of prep work. My insurance company approved it all. I became a well educated patient. I asked tons of questions, even met clients in the waiting room....almost everytime I went, someone said: Pastor Robin is that you? lol The health risks are high for anyone over weight, but on all the meds too? Way worse. You may never choose something like this or maybe you might but it is NOT the easy way out. It has been by far the hardest thing I have ever done for myself! And this is just the very begining! Sometimes those you think will be supportive are not. They told me horror stories just days before my surgery to "trip me up". Reminding me that I had to do this FOR ME!
12 months ago I adopted my new and healthy motto: "What other people think about me is NONE of my business!" And it really helped me grow a lot. The book The 4 Agreements was another tool that helped me develop a thicker skin in the public work I do. I have struggled with a body that doesn't always do what I want it too do. Not because my mind "didn't want it too" but stemming more from years of abusing it with medications including high doses of steroids for a back injury cause me to gain more and more weight. Car accidents left damage that overtime has been like my spine is playing domino's. I have been on so many different types of "crap" that I was suffering side effects which also cause a weakened immune system. Years of this morphed into becoming super hyper sensitive to those same meds Drs all wanted me to take. Last Ortho check, I was refereed to a Pain Management Clinic for injections into my spine. Spirit NEVER allowed me to make or keep that appt I kept hearing NO loud and clear. I let my weight keep me from flying to NYC and doing a Discovery Chanel Documentary about Mediumship, I told "*gasp* Harpo Studios NO because I didn't like what I looked like on camera. So I was suffering physically, emotionally and professionally. I knew something had to give. I couldn't keep doing the same thing and expect a different results. I also was becoming more and more down loosing my quality of life as I gained more weight from the inability to exercise. I used to bike, ride horses, hike, body sculpt, and DANCE. None of those things were possible anymore. Long term pain....can be debilitating to a Spirit. My energy levels became a struggle to manage. However, I loved channeling healing energy for others. I honestly believe that without doing it, I might have never made it through. I know that we all help each other. I teach that it is impossible to channel energy without it filling you first! I still strongly believe this today. Love and God can heal everything!
Then I was put on insulin a year ago. I was so upset. Now I had even more meds to take. More unbalance my body needed to overcome. It was hard giving myself injections every night. It never really was completely controlled. By diet or otherwise. Nothing would work without EXERCISE! But all Ortho Drs said NO EXERCISE! A not nice MIND GAME hamster wheel I let them put me on for several years. Around Dec 2009 my Dr refereed me to a friend of hers. She told me that I should go to this meeting at RGH. Said, "Robin, Merry Christmas... please DO NOT miss it." So I went. I met my awesome Dr that very same night. I found out at the standing room only seminar her "friend" was a Bariatric Surgen. He sought me out after his presentation and said, "Robin if you choose to do this, I promise to take good care of you and he has. I called the office which has a 3 month waiting list Jan 3 and someone had canceled an apointment the following day. I took it. I have been in "boot camp" ever since. Head to toe, in and out I have been tested and retested. I have under gone training and more. It has been a fierce year of prep work. My insurance company approved it all. I became a well educated patient. I asked tons of questions, even met clients in the waiting room....almost everytime I went, someone said: Pastor Robin is that you? lol The health risks are high for anyone over weight, but on all the meds too? Way worse. You may never choose something like this or maybe you might but it is NOT the easy way out. It has been by far the hardest thing I have ever done for myself! And this is just the very begining! Sometimes those you think will be supportive are not. They told me horror stories just days before my surgery to "trip me up". Reminding me that I had to do this FOR ME!
Last Mon May 10th was my re-birthday. With an amazing team of nurses, Drs, family & friends for support, I now am the proud owner of a 2010 Lap-Band System. As of today 25 lbs has been shed off my spine just 2 weeks. (a week of liquid prep)I left the hospital off ALL INSULIN, blood pressure meds and most importantly pain/steroid meds for my back. My spine has been pain free. I am able to WALK daily. I am able to rejoice in my heart....feeling my soul awaken , my connection to the Spirit World is deeper than ever. I am clear, and excited about the future. I am getting MY MIRACLE. I am so grateful that soon I will be able to ride horses again, to bike, hike and dance again. I will be able to golf again. I will be able to BREATHE again. I am proud of my personal choice. I am proud of the courage it took for me to finally allow the ME I want to see in the mirror break "free from her cocoon" And I hope, I really hope you support my efforts. I fall down, but I ALWAYS get back up. I heard in a meeting last night if I didn't tell you....some might see the rapid weight loss and think I was sick! So I decided in morning meditation to share my story with you! Spirit has sent me NOTHING but butterflies as signs the whole way! We are one....With Love, ~Robin Wind
The Butterfly Tribe
The Butterfly Tribe
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Roughing the Storm
So surgery went well last Mon. I was released late Wed afternoon. Ended up with a awesome private suite, wonderful nurses & friends. Over all the Dr couldn't have been happier with the results. Now I have realized that trying to rough out the pain and discomfort for the next few weeks might be more challenging than I first thought. The only allergic reaction I had was to the meds in my pain pump. Caused a "vertigo" reaction that was the most "stormy" night during my stay. Today I was finally able to read and focus my eyes without the body wanting to throw myself or my cookies overboard! Sleeping isn't easy without one of those lovely adjustable beds the hospital uses (the only thing I miss) I feel like a turtle on my back most of the time. I need help up and down, in and out. Jo has taken family leave for 10 more days to help me. I am grateful. I have emotional showers which occur daily. Teary from this entire metamorphose process. All of the changes happening so quickly and the total lack of control I have with my body right now. Taking lots of deep breaths and one day at a time. Keeping my eyes on the prize. Not making too many plans far out yet. And can I tell you that RESTING, SITTING, WATCHING MINDLESS TV is not fun for someone who is always running in the fast lane.
I am taking walks with Lily Bits. Can't lift anything for a month (((((what?)))))) She has been a wonderful 4 legged nurse. Kisses the blues away. I will be busy learning how to delegate and allowing others help me. Another lesson I am sure will be awkward. I heard lyrics to an old song for the 70"s I think just before dawn yesterday, "I've been to Paradise....but I've never been to Me."
A female guides voice was singing it in my head like a powerful spirit message! I got it loud and clear. I will take my time getting to know me, my body better. We are bonding right now. I no longer look at it as my enemy or anchor. When it talks: I will listen. When it is tired I will rest it. And everyday I will worship my physical temple. Take the time to fix and balance what is broken. Shed this skin, grow those wings and fly! Did I mention we are going on a cruise Oct 2-8 to the Bahamas? Celebrating a dear friends 60th Birthday. Mmmm.....I see lots and lots of dancing & dolphin! (and note to self - patches for sea sickness) *giggles*
I am taking walks with Lily Bits. Can't lift anything for a month (((((what?)))))) She has been a wonderful 4 legged nurse. Kisses the blues away. I will be busy learning how to delegate and allowing others help me. Another lesson I am sure will be awkward. I heard lyrics to an old song for the 70"s I think just before dawn yesterday, "I've been to Paradise....but I've never been to Me."
A female guides voice was singing it in my head like a powerful spirit message! I got it loud and clear. I will take my time getting to know me, my body better. We are bonding right now. I no longer look at it as my enemy or anchor. When it talks: I will listen. When it is tired I will rest it. And everyday I will worship my physical temple. Take the time to fix and balance what is broken. Shed this skin, grow those wings and fly! Did I mention we are going on a cruise Oct 2-8 to the Bahamas? Celebrating a dear friends 60th Birthday. Mmmm.....I see lots and lots of dancing & dolphin! (and note to self - patches for sea sickness) *giggles*
Friday, May 7, 2010
Operation Butterfly....
So as the smell of Lilac's enters my office window, I thought it was time to share some exciting news. Operation Butterfly has begun! 2010 will truly be a year of transformation and change for me. I am taking personal steps to get healthier by taking better care of the"one who cares for so many" as my dear friend Sandy calls me. I have already disposed of 18 lbs.....the long overdue journey has begun. I am having surgery next Mon to "help me-better help myself". This combined with the release of baggage/abuse of my childhood, should be a celebration of sorts. More ceremony of the positive.....less emotional attachment to the negative. I am not foolish enough to attempt lag of the journey all alone. I have a team. It is called TEAM BUTTERFLY. They are a wonderful group of friends and professionals whom I adore, trust and count on for support. This process will not be easy. Some days are down right brutal actually. But I will do it. Step by step. I am ready do my part to be successful on this important part of my journey. Spirit Guides are very "on board" as well. I laugh remembering the other day when I zeroed in on a stone at Two Hawks Gallery. Yes, I know that the idea of the heavens opening up with angels singing and me having a "moment" with a stone, crystal AKA Rock is hard to imagine, but it happened! lol It is called a: Snakeskin Agate. A few highlights out of "The Crystal Bible" are: Spiritually it strengthens the base and sacral chakras, rooting the soul into the body and the earth, and facilitating full acceptance of incarnation. *giggles* Snakeskin Agate connects you to the joy of living, and reminds you as the snake sheds its skin, you can slough off your past and be reborn! Teaching "like cures like". I love that part! For years I have said "I wish I could find a person that could channel Spirit energy, like I do for others". It appears the universe agrees. They will also be cheering me on, helping me help myself, picking me up when I am down. Channeling energy in and clearing out those nightmares of the past.
I am grateful every single day for the opportunity to serve Spirit, to serve others and now I am happy to see the real me again. I am ready to become all I am meant to be! In morning meditations I see my new beautiful wings in bright beautiful colors being woven. Fully aware that as fragile as butterfly's wings are: they are "wind current" strong for her as she dances gracefully across the sky. I am ready to dance and fly again..... I hope you find the time to discover your inner butterfly too!
My Love, ~Robin Wind
I am grateful every single day for the opportunity to serve Spirit, to serve others and now I am happy to see the real me again. I am ready to become all I am meant to be! In morning meditations I see my new beautiful wings in bright beautiful colors being woven. Fully aware that as fragile as butterfly's wings are: they are "wind current" strong for her as she dances gracefully across the sky. I am ready to dance and fly again..... I hope you find the time to discover your inner butterfly too!
My Love, ~Robin Wind
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Reflections
So it has been awhile since my last confession....mmm I mean blog! Things have been going really great. Working hard, life moving along nicely until yesterday afternoon. I was in Ontario, heading to my brothers house. I am sitting at a red light minding my business. And I heard the screeching of brakes and had the time to think: "wow I hope that isn't behind....." as my mind said ME I was launched. Up high into brief silence (later I find out that one of my car's safety features shut all power off to protect from fire or gas tank explosion)and into the car in front of me. The sound of glass, metal quickly reminding me of a head on crash I survived many years ago. I do a brief inventory of self. I felt myself in a ripple wave of energy during the crash, could feel Spirit around me AGAIN....or should I say STILL? I get out, to see the car behind me folded in half his engine on the road the rest is practically in his lap. I get him out as the driver in front of me is trying to help me. I calmly call 911. He looks at me shaking, (all of us were) tears down his cheeks and says: I am so sorry. I hugged him. And said I was just happy that HE was ok. He told us he was overtired and he was texting his girlfriend on his way home from work. When the reality of his choices hit him, he sat on the side of the road with his head in his hands crying. He just crashed his company car. Almost killed 2 people sitting at a traffic light. He couldn't even look at us the rest of the time we were together. 2 troupers came moving us off 104. Whole thing took almost 2 hours out of my day. But the ripple effect for all 3 of us will last a lot longer. The flash backs of my accident caused a huge emotional release. I have been reflecting on my life. From that day where my life changed course to where I was yesterday afternoon. Light years....I mean so much changed in such a short amount of time. Funny, time is not what it used to be to me. It is odd to feel this alive again. I am still shaking and stirred up emotionally....but I am well. His car went underneath mine. And it lifted ME UP. Above and out of danger. It took out my muffler system, may have frame damage, and will need a new bumper front and back. But I am ALIVE. I am aware of myself and purpose at a greater level. And no one had to die or come back to life to bring a message forth. The important message to all I know and love: DO NOT TEXT AND DRIVE. I have done this myself. Life is short enough without us gambling it away. Pay attention, if you see someone talking or texting get out of their way. Remind your loved ones to be safe too. Be present. Be in the moment. All is well.
Friday, March 19, 2010
3:00 AM Rambling Thoughts
So I have been busy releasing and letting go with love....people, places and things that no longer serve me. I have found this to be quite an liberating experience overall. I used to get so upset when I heard that someone was out in the world slandering my reputation, saying my name in vane. Unhappy by something I supposedly "did unto another" as they "did unto me ". I am often used as a Spirit Mirror. A mentor once told me, when I became a Spiritualist minister, " if I was pissing people off then I was going to be a a great spiritual guide/teacher someday." I really can appreciate her wisdom today.
More and more these days I hear from Spirit: "What others think of me in none of my business." This has become my new affiirmation. It has made the letting go process a whole lot easier for me. I am very grateful to be able to find the humor in my "not so graceful" experiences of the past. I am finally able to honor the lessons when I responded with fear before I could just be: LOVE
I see how thin my skin was, how stressed out I was, how hurt I choose to be, wanting everyone to like me, working so hard trying to make everyone around me happy. Then one day I just broke. It was way too much pressure holding on to all of that crap, that wasn't really mine to be fixing. Realizing that it was my EGO fueling this energy. Not my higher "we" self. It became clear that it isn't my job to make ANYONE happy.... but it was my job to make myself happy. With this awareness came great relief; freedom of worry and I had more a lot more time and energy. By letting go, I was able to ground and refocus. Releasing everything and everyone with love was all I was supposed do.
Years later, I know that no matter what I do, how pure my intentions may be, someone, somewhere will not like it, will find fault in it. Question it, talk about it, choose to be a victim of it. Will blame it, dislike it, and if allowed will try to destroy the source of it. I have learned even when I am working from the highest vibration of LOVE or SPIRIT, that this positive energy can really tick off those who " vibrate lower". For some, to avoid taking personal responsibility for the choices they made, it is simply easier to make drama, point fingers at others to avoid the spot light shining to brightly on them. People don't expect someone to set healthy boundaries, or to mirror back to them their behaviors. They sure don't expect someone to tell them what they need to hear and not what they want to hear. Once walls are torn down, the lights go on, the person can no longer live in the dark and in denial. Once control is released changes will happen, and ultimately this will force them into a unknown terrority. History has proven time and time again, that people will always try to destroy something they don't understand. Whether persons, creatures or the world around them, it is easy to do when you view yourself as SEPERATE from them. I believe we must elimate this false illuision. Instead of feeling fear first we must find faith. Once you find it, you will begin to feel your connection to everything and everyone. Then we can embrace this new essence of self. So don't run away from challanges. Where ever you go, there you are. Stay and do your work. No, it won't be easy....this is why it is called work! And no one can do it for you but in a group, where there are 2 or more gathered in LOVE God will help you. Remember that free will and choice, allows us to BE all that we are meant to be. Do NOT take things personal, do unto others as you would have them do unto you. Together we will be able to continue moving forward with the least amount of ciaos possible. Walk your talk, and lead by example always staying true to yourself. A person shouldn't ever have to hide their light because it makes others uncomfortable. If it's too bright, I say "put on your shades baby". If someone is doing something that is really bothering you, look in the mirror, reflect inward and ask higher self: Why is this happening? Release it and let it go.... Rinse and Repeat lol
Give yourself permission to twinkle and shine. Learn to love and to trust your higher self to be HONEST with you. By doing so, you give others permission to do the same. And lets face it, in life some days you are the bird, and some days you are the statue. But all times we are related. Just Be LOVE......Good Night!
More and more these days I hear from Spirit: "What others think of me in none of my business." This has become my new affiirmation. It has made the letting go process a whole lot easier for me. I am very grateful to be able to find the humor in my "not so graceful" experiences of the past. I am finally able to honor the lessons when I responded with fear before I could just be: LOVE
I see how thin my skin was, how stressed out I was, how hurt I choose to be, wanting everyone to like me, working so hard trying to make everyone around me happy. Then one day I just broke. It was way too much pressure holding on to all of that crap, that wasn't really mine to be fixing. Realizing that it was my EGO fueling this energy. Not my higher "we" self. It became clear that it isn't my job to make ANYONE happy.... but it was my job to make myself happy. With this awareness came great relief; freedom of worry and I had more a lot more time and energy. By letting go, I was able to ground and refocus. Releasing everything and everyone with love was all I was supposed do.
Years later, I know that no matter what I do, how pure my intentions may be, someone, somewhere will not like it, will find fault in it. Question it, talk about it, choose to be a victim of it. Will blame it, dislike it, and if allowed will try to destroy the source of it. I have learned even when I am working from the highest vibration of LOVE or SPIRIT, that this positive energy can really tick off those who " vibrate lower". For some, to avoid taking personal responsibility for the choices they made, it is simply easier to make drama, point fingers at others to avoid the spot light shining to brightly on them. People don't expect someone to set healthy boundaries, or to mirror back to them their behaviors. They sure don't expect someone to tell them what they need to hear and not what they want to hear. Once walls are torn down, the lights go on, the person can no longer live in the dark and in denial. Once control is released changes will happen, and ultimately this will force them into a unknown terrority. History has proven time and time again, that people will always try to destroy something they don't understand. Whether persons, creatures or the world around them, it is easy to do when you view yourself as SEPERATE from them. I believe we must elimate this false illuision. Instead of feeling fear first we must find faith. Once you find it, you will begin to feel your connection to everything and everyone. Then we can embrace this new essence of self. So don't run away from challanges. Where ever you go, there you are. Stay and do your work. No, it won't be easy....this is why it is called work! And no one can do it for you but in a group, where there are 2 or more gathered in LOVE God will help you. Remember that free will and choice, allows us to BE all that we are meant to be. Do NOT take things personal, do unto others as you would have them do unto you. Together we will be able to continue moving forward with the least amount of ciaos possible. Walk your talk, and lead by example always staying true to yourself. A person shouldn't ever have to hide their light because it makes others uncomfortable. If it's too bright, I say "put on your shades baby". If someone is doing something that is really bothering you, look in the mirror, reflect inward and ask higher self: Why is this happening? Release it and let it go.... Rinse and Repeat lol
Give yourself permission to twinkle and shine. Learn to love and to trust your higher self to be HONEST with you. By doing so, you give others permission to do the same. And lets face it, in life some days you are the bird, and some days you are the statue. But all times we are related. Just Be LOVE......Good Night!
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Turning it up and Processing stuff.....
So the last month the Spirit World decided to "turn the volume up" even louder. After a natural disaster of any kind or any world event where there is massive loss of life, my clairaudience goes banana's. It gets so loud, I can't sleep. My own spirit rhythms and patterns are disrupted. I hear "spirits, radio & sound waves, people who are still hear calling out for them, often in other languages. And sometimes when it is at the peak or worst, I can hear injured people and animals calling out for help. After this initial wave of energy hits, then the "feeling zone" in my center is filled with the "fear & pain" of all those effected. I work minute by minute to release and let go of what isn't mine to bare. Very aware that "without" my greater connection with God, regularly releasing it all to our Creator I might break. It is God's Amazing Grace that gives me my strength.
I had an "out of body" experience a few weeks ago where I was with a young woman and I "woke up buried under stone. Not being able to move at all. She had light blond/brown hair: American I believe, she was so scared, too cold and she kept telling me it was so quiet. To quiet. I told her that she was going to be alright, I was with her now. I felt her thoughts of her family, her fear of the dark most and dying of course. So I wrapped her up in light, and began singing to her. The next day, I felt like I was still holding her, a part of her was somehow inside of me. Try as I might, my body could NOT get warm. Felt totally unable to forget our time under the rubble. After a few quiet hours of early AM prayers, meditation and returning emails....I suddenly noticed she was gone. No longer suffering. I felt her moving to the Spirit World with love & light. I have had this same type of experience for years now, holding children infected with HIV in Africa as they are passing into spirit. Soothing pain, singing songs to ease fears.
No, this is not one of my favorite parts of my "super powers" and something I struggle to live with. I sometimes wonder why this is part of my reality. But then I remember what one of the Shaman told me in the Peruvian jungle. I am 1 of 4 on the planet at this time. My job or mission is so "ease the suffering" in the world with the Creator's light energy which flows through my being. Besides my heart being jump started a few times in the past, he could see, and felt that I had been struck by lightening at one point. He was certain that is what makes my connection so strong. Over the years, going back over the physical memories of my NDE (near death experience) I have started to accept this as truth.
Another elder who has never been out of the jungle told me: he had seen and felt "me" years ago when his tribe lost his mother. All were standing by the edge of the Amazon, she was called to go home....so she walked into the water. A dolphin appeared were she went under. The whole tribe watched her jump and swim away from them. Very similar to my own dolphin experience many years ago. I felt our stories were far to similar to be a coincidence.
If you know me you have heard me say a thousand times or more: My gifts are a blessing or a curse depending on which day you ask! Lucky for me, most days are blessing. I love serving the Creator and the wonderful people I meet. More and more I realize that this isn't just a US thing, it is a International thing, not just an International thing but a Universal thing. The higher mission bridges all beings, all worlds together as ONE. I have no idea how this will happen. I only know that it is happening already. I am ready......
I had an "out of body" experience a few weeks ago where I was with a young woman and I "woke up buried under stone. Not being able to move at all. She had light blond/brown hair: American I believe, she was so scared, too cold and she kept telling me it was so quiet. To quiet. I told her that she was going to be alright, I was with her now. I felt her thoughts of her family, her fear of the dark most and dying of course. So I wrapped her up in light, and began singing to her. The next day, I felt like I was still holding her, a part of her was somehow inside of me. Try as I might, my body could NOT get warm. Felt totally unable to forget our time under the rubble. After a few quiet hours of early AM prayers, meditation and returning emails....I suddenly noticed she was gone. No longer suffering. I felt her moving to the Spirit World with love & light. I have had this same type of experience for years now, holding children infected with HIV in Africa as they are passing into spirit. Soothing pain, singing songs to ease fears.
No, this is not one of my favorite parts of my "super powers" and something I struggle to live with. I sometimes wonder why this is part of my reality. But then I remember what one of the Shaman told me in the Peruvian jungle. I am 1 of 4 on the planet at this time. My job or mission is so "ease the suffering" in the world with the Creator's light energy which flows through my being. Besides my heart being jump started a few times in the past, he could see, and felt that I had been struck by lightening at one point. He was certain that is what makes my connection so strong. Over the years, going back over the physical memories of my NDE (near death experience) I have started to accept this as truth.
Another elder who has never been out of the jungle told me: he had seen and felt "me" years ago when his tribe lost his mother. All were standing by the edge of the Amazon, she was called to go home....so she walked into the water. A dolphin appeared were she went under. The whole tribe watched her jump and swim away from them. Very similar to my own dolphin experience many years ago. I felt our stories were far to similar to be a coincidence.
If you know me you have heard me say a thousand times or more: My gifts are a blessing or a curse depending on which day you ask! Lucky for me, most days are blessing. I love serving the Creator and the wonderful people I meet. More and more I realize that this isn't just a US thing, it is a International thing, not just an International thing but a Universal thing. The higher mission bridges all beings, all worlds together as ONE. I have no idea how this will happen. I only know that it is happening already. I am ready......
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